Everyone (including me) raves about the beneficial effects of a meditation session. And yet ...

Someone once told me that she was afraid of meditation - because the feelings that come up could throw her off track. I could well understand her. Because I've had that experience myself.

To be completely honest: I knew that my life would change as soon as I decided to meditate. I realised that I would never be the same again.

Was I ready for this change? My energy would change - and the people around me would feel it. Was I ready to be myself again? Because that's what it's all about: getting back to the „real me“. To restore inner peace.

I knew that meditation would release feelings that I had suppressed for a long time. But I was determined to keep going - to let go of my physical and emotional pain.

It wasn't fear that I felt, but rather a state of powerlessness - mentally and physically. What was I supposed to do if I couldn't stop crying? Or if I felt even worse afterwards? An inner dilemma.

On the one hand, I was ready to look ahead. On the other hand, there was this fear of the unknown. I knew that I had to change in order to be happy and free again.

Preparation was necessary - unavoidable. How did I proceed?

I kept telling myself over and over again for several days: „Everything will be fine. I can change.“ I have started to accept the impending change - step by step.

If you recognise yourself in these lines, I would like to tell you: you are not alone. Change requires courage - but also compassion for yourself. If you like, I would be happy to put together a small list of affirmations that can accompany you on your journey.

Trust yourself!

And then came the day when I realised: Now I'm ready. I made sure that nothing and nobody disturbed me. This moment was all mine.

I put on some soft music, lit a candle and some fragrant incense sticks. I wanted the room I was in to welcome me - warm, quiet and protected. I wanted to feel comfortable, safe and relaxed. Because only in a lovingly designed atmosphere could I open up completely - to myself, to what was to come.

My first meditation - tears, transformation and deep healing

My first session was a breathing meditation - because I found it difficult to calm down back then. No wonder, right?

I can tell you: I cried a lot. A lot. My whole body reacted. And yet I wasn't afraid - because at the same time I felt something good happening inside me. Something was releasing. I felt a lightness that I hadn't known for a long time. It's hard to put into words ... It was upsetting - and at the same time deeply healing.

I gave free rein to my feelings: anger, fear, hope, aversion, disappointment, mental and physical pain ... and much more. Everything was allowed to be there. Everything was allowed to flow.

I don't remember exactly how long it took. But I do know that it needs space. An afternoon - or even a whole day - just for you. Without pressure. Without expectations.

A walk in the forest that same day helped me to centre myself again. Nature held me. I felt better. Exhausted, yes - but carefree at the same time. And in a much clearer, more peaceful state.

Breathing meditation - My path into silence

A few days after my first meditation, I repeated the same exercise - a simple breathing meditation. The sobs had subsided. I felt it: I'm on the right track.

After each session, I became more confident, freer and happier. A gentle, light-filled energy flowed through me - one that I hadn't felt for a long time. The inner ballast began to loosen. I was allowed to let go.

Since then I have been meditating regularly - and I no longer want to be without meditation. It has become an integral part of my life. This profound experience led me to train as a meditation teacher. Because I want to pass on this gift.

Would you like to start meditating?

What do you need to find your own way into silence? Perhaps a guided meditation that gently accompanies you? If you would like, I would be happy to offer you a meditation for beginners - lovingly and mindfully designed.

Do not hesitate to contact me. I am here for you - before, during and after your meditation. On my Instagram account you will find posts and inspiration on the topic of meditation. Feel free to drop by - and if you feel like it, just join in.

I look forward to seeing you.

From the heart, Catherine